Since We Stopped Posting
August 7th, 2008 by Aaron
I experienced a real burst of progress when I first realized I had SAD and began to see clearly how it had affected my life. I was able to put a lot of very frustrating things into perspective and lighten up about my worst moments. Writing posts for this site was a big part of that.
But eventually, around the time the posting stopped, I began to feel like, no matter how much progress I made or effort I put into getting better, the intense discomfort I felt in difficult situations made lasting improvement something of a mirage.
I don’t want to sound too pessimistic. I was enjoying my life and enjoying a more relaxed attitude towards my own metal state, but I was seeing just how constrained by this thing I had always been and how constrained I would continue to be. No matter how much progress I made I wanted, very deeply, not to have to deal with SAD.
And a lot has happened since we stopped posting here. I moved. I took up a number of other writing projects. And I tried to get back into dating after playing at being a hermit. All of these things troubled my social anxiety. Especially being single.
There is a way to find comfort in avoiding social interactions. And there are many things it is easy to give up or to never want in the first place. But there are some things, like dating, that avoiding will make you feel just as bad as SAD is going to make you feel when you give them a shot.
Trying to manage all of these different emotions, while on the look out for any new techniques that might help, had become my routine. But it didn’t feel like there was going to be anything that really shook up that sometimes rather uncomfortable stasis.
Until recently.
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Robert Kennedy wrote on 08/8/08 at 12:30 pm :
Now that is a cliffhanger. What happened recently? I guess I will have to wait and see.
Aaron wrote on 08/12/08 at 9:37 am :
Thanks for the comment. The new post is only a day or two away. Just finishing up the wording in a few sections. I’m very excited about getting this info out there.