Anxious Living

Fundamental Distrust

April 18th, 2007 by Aaron

I keep going over my insecurities, my anxieties.  I pick them apart in a journal I keep on my laptop.  Each time I get anxious I try to take a look at exactly what is happening to me, what caused the anxiety, what thoughts are attached, what is my reaction, anything I can learn.

One thing that keeps coming up, even in the smallest of moments, is that I fundamentally do not trust myself.  It started as a flash of insight, a kind of recognition of the obviousness of something I had been dancing around for some time, and grew form there.  Over the last few weeks I have begun to understand just how many parts of my life it affects.

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